| BYSG | Incapability | 44
If Shen Yu liked a girl, it would be understandable, because girls generally need more care due to physical differences.
But Shen Yu likes boys.
Just the thought of a tough, masculine boy being carefully looked after by Shen Yu made him extremely uncomfortable.
Perhaps it's because he's a straight man and can't comprehend love between men, so he instinctively measures it using brotherly love.
If Shen Yu were to end up with another guy in the future, they would undoubtedly be inseparable, attending classes together, eating together, watching movies, sleeping together... and he wouldn't spend time with him anymore.
If both he and the other guy were sick at the same time, Shen Yu would choose to care for the other guy, not him.
In his eyes, friendship isn't any less important than love; both are equally significant.
Even now, with no romantic partner, he subconsciously values friendship more.
It might be because people of the same gender repel each other, and that other person takes away something that should belong to him, no matter who they are, he can't help but feel displeased.
Like Fang Xiaoming from last time.
So... it’s best if Shen Yu stays single.
The situation had gone in circles, returning to the starting point.
As long as Shen Yu doesn't have a partner, it doesn’t matter whether he likes boys or girls, it won’t affect their relationship.
...
On the way back after hanging up the IV, Cheng Mofei finally felt much better. The hand warmer stuck to his clothes had warmed him up to the point where he was sweating, but he didn't take it off.
At this hour, there were few cars on the road, and the taxi was speeding along, quickly arriving at Yanda University.
There was still some time before the dorm curfew, so considering Cheng Mofei’s condition, the two of them walked leisurely toward the dorm.
The campus was almost empty by now, and the streetlights cast the shadows of the two of them overlapping.
After the night’s events, Cheng Mofei had completely come to terms with the fact that Shen Yu liked boys.
It had been much easier to accept than he had expected.
Compared to the difficulty of accepting that Shen Yu liked boys, Cheng Mofei found it even harder to accept losing Shen Yu as a good brother.
Perhaps, he wasn’t actually that homophobic.
What he feared were the morally corrupt individuals, and unfortunately, most of the people he had encountered who were gay had bad character. This led him to develop an instinctive fear of the group and avoid them.
Shen Yu’s presence might be a breakthrough.
Even if it didn’t change things too much, he wouldn’t look at Shen Yu through biased lenses.
Cheng Mofei tentatively asked, “When did you realize you liked boys?”
Because of the events in high school, Cheng Mofei had hardly come into contact with gay people. Now that his good brother had suddenly become one, it was natural for him to be curious.
Shen Yu thought for a moment before replying, “I don’t really remember, but it should’ve been in middle school.”
It really had been a long time.
Cheng Mofei asked again, “Did you meet someone you liked in middle school?”
What he could imagine was that Shen Yu had realized his sexual orientation after discovering that he had feelings for someone of the same sex.
If that were the case, did Shen Yu end up with that person?
And what was the situation now?
Shen Yu shook his head. “No, it wasn’t like that. I just happened to watch one of those kinds of films and realized I felt something. And when some girls confessed to me and I had no interest at all, I realized I might like guys.”
Cheng Mofei let out an "oh," and while he relaxed, a new question popped into his mind.
Those kinds of films… were they about two men?
Cheng Mofei found it hard to imagine the scene of two men doing those things.
Not just kissing, but being completely open with each other, and going further...
Wait, had he... been open with Shen Yu before?!
Cheng Mofei’s ears instantly turned bright red, and it felt like his brain had been steamed, completely losing the ability to think.
Not only had he been open with Shen Yu, but they had even showered together, with him lathering Shen Yu’s body with shower gel...
If they were both straight, it wouldn’t have mattered, but Shen Yu was gay, how could he let another man take advantage of him like that?
No wonder Shen Yu had hesitated for so long back then, and only reluctantly agreed in the end out of his own helplessness.
He had also made so many straight-guy jokes to Shen Yu, even teasing him and playfully pushing him in the mornings, joking about helping each other out…
How was that any different from a hooligan?
He was really an idiot.
And Shen Yu still wanted to be friends with him and treated him so well.
He had to make it up to Shen Yu properly.
He also had to protect Shen Yu, making sure no bad guys from the gay community took advantage of him.
Cheng Mofei rubbed his face, which was as hot as his ears, and casually asked, “Have you ever liked any guys?”
Shen Yu thought for a moment before answering, “Yes.”
He had read similar scenarios in those relationship guides. When someone asked if they liked anyone, the answer would be yes, and later on, it would slowly be revealed that the person they liked was actually the one asking.
Cheng Mofei paused for a moment before asking, “What kind of person is he?”
Shen Yu summarized a few of Cheng Mofei’s qualities and said, “Very polite, very reliable and very cute.”
Cheng Mofei slowly let his hand fall.
He had said so many rude things to Shen Yu, done things that crossed the line, he was far from polite.
He always made Shen Yu take care of him, even causing Shen Yu’s lips to swell once, he was anything but reliable.
Cute... He was nearly six feet tall, a typical northern guy—he couldn’t be further from cute.
He knew that he would never align with the kind of person Shen Yu liked.
Cheng Mofei gritted his teeth. "If you ever like someone, you have to tell me. I'll help you judge them. I have a special talent for spotting good guys. If they're a good guy, I'll definitely be able to tell."
Shen Yu paused for a few seconds, unable to hold back a smile. "Okay."
He already had someone in mind, but it couldn’t be said.
But there was no need to judge, the person was very good.
...
Back in the dorm, Cheng Mofei quickly answered the questions from the other two, then took the warm water and medicine Shen Yu handed him, obediently taking the medicine.
He didn’t have stomach problems, and his health was usually pretty good. Tonight, he probably just had some issues with his food.
After taking the medicine, Cheng Mofei logged into WeChat on his computer and sent a message to his family, asking them to arrange for someone to bring his old phone tomorrow.
Cheng Mofei’s gaze fell on his cracked phone screen, which resembled a spider's web.
He carefully removed the phone case and decided that tomorrow he would take the phone to a store to see if it could be repaired.
If it could be fixed, he wouldn’t bother replacing it.
The phone had only been used for a year, and transferring all the data would be a hassle. Plus, he had just bought the new phone case, which was a large orange one he really liked, he didn’t want to lose it.
After changing into clean clothes, Cheng Mofei climbed into bed. He still didn’t feel completely well, but lying down made him feel much better.
The hand warmer that Shen Yu had given him still felt warm; its heat had lasted a surprisingly long time.
It had been a long time since he’d used one of these, and he didn’t expect it to work so well.
Shen Yu, who had been charging his phone on the bottom bunk, glanced at Cheng Mofei when he climbed into bed and asked, “Is the hand warmer still warm? Do you need me to put a new one on?”
In his previous life, he had suffered from stomach issues and often had stomach pains.
When it hurt, using a hand warmer or a hot water bottle made him feel much better, so he had some experience with these things.
Cheng Mofei thought for a moment and nodded.
The guy from the hospital had used two hand warmers, and after applying them, his voice had turned all raspy and awkward, sounding so cringe-worthy.
Two hand warmers should make it even more comfortable.
Shen Yu quickly tore off another hand warmer and handed it to Cheng Mofei, reminding him, "Make sure to watch the temperature, be careful not to burn yourself."
"Okay." Cheng Mofei nodded obediently.
He snuggled into the bed, while Shen Yu didn’t bother to write in his diary, immediately shared the exciting news with his mom.
Shen Yu: [Mom, I took a step forward, and it went really well!]
Then he selected a “Little Hamster Happy” sticker, one he’d stolen from Cheng Mofei, and sent it along.
Shen Xunyan, still awake, saw the message and was equally thrilled, immediately replying: [That’s great! I’m waiting for your good news.]
Shen Yu replied with a “Little Hamster Confident of Victory” sticker.
Seeing him like this, Shen Xunyan felt confident it was a done deal. She was so happy for him that she walked around the bedroom a few times.
Her husband, Ning Boran, noticed and asked her what happened.
Shen Xunyan briefly explained the situation to her husband.
He smiled and said, "That’s great! Once they're together, if there's a chance, we should invite them over for a meal."
Shen Xunyan gave a helpless smile. "You're in such a hurry… but you did remind me. The new hotpot pot has arrived. I’ll ask Xiao Que and Xiao Yu when they’re free so we can have a hotpot dinner. I’ll prepare the ingredients in advance."
And then there was Xiao Yu's roommate, Xiao Cheng.
Since he was so close to Xiao Yu, he should know about Xiao Yu’s love life.
She could also gossip with him a bit when the time came.
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