| BYSG | I Don't Seem Straight | 64
After escaping from Shen Yu's bed, Cheng Mofei had not been able to sleep.
He kept waiting for the restlessness to fade, waiting for the body's reaction to subside on its own.
In the past, some physiological responses would gradually disappear even without being addressed.
But tonight, it felt a bit different...
He waited and waited, until his mind couldn't control itself and started to wander.
He thought about the way Shen Yu called him "senior" today, about the scene when they took a bath together a long time ago, and about all the little moments they had shared recently.
As he thought more and more, Shen Yu's image slowly overlapped with the scene from the video he had watched earlier, and he became the other protagonist in the video.
His breathing, which had been trapped under the covers, became heavier, exhaling the restless heat from his body. The physical reaction intensified rather than diminished.
He tried to regulate his breathing, but a strange thought suddenly popped into his head…
He went from being a straight guy to a gay guy.
He inwardly mocked himself with a swear word—what a dumb, cheesy joke to come up with.
Unconsciously, the even snoring of Xiao Xiong grew louder, signaling that the night had deepened.
Lately, Xiao Xiong had been exercising for a while every evening, and his snoring had gotten even louder.
However, he was almost always the last to fall asleep in the dorm, and the other three roommates slept lightly, so it didn’t really disturb anyone.
Cheng Mofei secretly pulled his phone under the covers and glanced at the time on the screen.
It was past 2 AM.
Cheng Mofei squinted his eyes, lowered the phone’s brightness to the minimum, and after struggling for half a minute, he quietly went to the bathroom, intending to take care of the growing pressure below.
Otherwise, he figured he wouldn’t get any sleep tonight.
Even if he fell asleep, if he woke up like this tomorrow during the day, he still wouldn't be able to get out of bed.
After settling his young hamster son in the bathroom, Cheng Mofei tried his best to minimize any noise and silently dealt with the situation.
He unconsciously closed his eyes, and all he could see in his mind was Shen Yu's figure.
He couldn't control the fantasies of Shen Yu being right in front of him.
The hand wasn't his... it was Shen Yu's...
It was Shen Yu helping him...
His Adam's apple slowly moved with the action of swallowing.
Morality and desire intertwined, as he cursed himself as a pervert deep down while also sinking into this brief and concealed indulgence.
...
He didn't know how long it had passed, but it finally ended. Cheng Mofei quickly cleaned up the scene, turned off the lights, and hurried back to bed.
Fortunately, the three of them were still sound asleep and hadn't noticed his little midnight incident.
Dealing with such matters was physically exhausting, and once he lay back down, sleepiness finally took over.
Before falling into a deep sleep, Cheng Mofei ruthlessly condemned himself by the morals he'd upheld for over a decade, and once again silently cursed himself as a pervert.
…
The next day, only Shen Yu had an 8 a.m. class.
He woke up ten minutes earlier than the phone alarm, yawned, turned off the alarm in advance, and got out of bed to go wash up in the bathroom.
Almost five hours had passed, and there was no trace or scent left in the bathroom, but Shen Yu still furrowed his brows in confusion.
He walked straight up to the hamster cage.
Every time he had an early class and went to wash up, Shen Yu would glance at the little hamster in the cage.
Since the dormitory had turned on the heating, the little one had taken to sleeping in a half-hanging coconut shell nest, no longer using the sleep nook, probably because it was too warm.
But there was no sign of it inside the coconut shell.
Shen Yu opened the cage and carefully searched through it, but there was no sign of it anywhere else either.
It was as if... there was no hamster in the cage at all.
He had heard that hamsters might escape their cages, but had it really escaped?
But the cage showed no signs of being tampered with.
Shen Yu didn't have time to wash up and immediately started searching around the bathroom.
It wasn't long before he discovered the travel box in the corner.
Inside the travel box, the little hamster had its tiny paws pressed against the transparent wall, leaving two little pink paw prints. Its dark, shiny eyes stared directly at him, full of a deep, unspoken sense of grievance.
…
Damn it, who put the little hamster in the travel box and forgot to put it back in its cage?
The travel box was empty, and he had no idea how long the little hamster had been confined there.
Shen Yu immediately opened the travel box and put the little hamster back in its cage.
The first thing the hamster did after returning to the cage was run straight to the water bottle. Its tiny tongue made a "plop plop" sound as it licked the rolling ball of the water bottle, drinking for over a minute.
It was clear that it was really thirsty. Then, it quickly ran to the food bowl and began stuffing its cheek pouches with food, filling them up before starting to eat.
Poor little thing...
He had no idea how it managed to survive the night.
After finishing his morning routine and heading out, Shen Yu sent a message in the dorm group: 【Who left Momo in the travel box last night and forgot to put it back in the cage?】
This kind of thing really needs more attention.
Though the heating was on now, if it had been cold before the heating was turned on, leaving the little hamster in the travel box overnight might have caused it to freeze and get sick.
If such a small creature got sick, it would be hard to treat and suffer through the process.
Hamsters don't have long lifespans to begin with, so he hoped its brief life could be peaceful and healthy.
...
When Cheng Mofei woke up, the first thing he saw was that message, causing him to sit up abruptly in bed.
Last night... last night, he had been worried someone might wake up in the middle of the night to use the bathroom, and after finishing, in the rush, he had forgotten to put Momo back in its cage.
For a moment, Cheng Mofei was completely overwhelmed by guilt. He quickly ordered some imported hamster food and toys online, then rushed out of bed to fill the little one's food bowl.
The little hamster, after being returned to the cage by Shen Yu, was now curled up in its nest, already sleeping. It seemed to be fine.
Cheng Mofei didn’t dare disturb it, silently muttering in his heart, "Son, I'm sorry, I won't let this happen again," as a form of repentance.
For the rest of the day, Cheng Mofei’s mental state was off, weighed down by guilt.
Not only was it because he had stayed up late last night and indulged for a long time in the bathroom, but also because after falling asleep, he had dreamt a lot.
When he woke up, the fragments of the dreams slipped away bit by bit, but he knew every part of the dream was filled with Shen Yu’s figure.
He hadn't played the role of a pervert throughout the entire dream. The spring dream only took up a part of it; the rest was about him and Shen Yu interacting like an ordinary couple.
If yesterday, he had suddenly become aware that his brotherly feelings for Shen Yu had long since secretly transformed, leaving him with a sense of unreality, then after a night of reflection, he had grown even more certain of his feelings for Shen Yu.
He had a strong sense of possessiveness toward Shen Yu, beyond brotherly affection.
He admired him, liked him, and wanted to be with him forever.
Shen Yu was about to pursue that wild man, and he had to act quickly.
If Shen Yu ended up with that man, he would lose his chance.
He still remembered the date for Shen Yu's phone lock screen password: December 6th. It was fast approaching, and he wondered if it had anything to do with that wild man. If it did, would Shen Yu choose to confess to him on that day?
Confessing directly to Shen Yu was definitely not an option. Not to mention that he wasn't Shen Yu's ideal type, but Shen Yu would surely be shocked by it.
He might even suspect that he had been influenced by those forum posts and had only become "gay" as a result, or he might feel guilty for "turning" him and only experience guilt, without any real feelings.
Although he had never been in a relationship, he understood that love should be pure.
He didn't want any impurities between him and Shen Yu.
He had to first make Shen Yu accept the fact that he had already changed, and only then could he take the next step in pursuing him.
Time was running out.
...
On the other side, Shen Yu was attending an elective course.
In his previous life during college, he would either sleep through these types of courses or skip them to go work part-time.
But in this life, even though it was a "water course," he had been attending and listening properly. It was quite interesting, and he had learned a lot of knowledge he had never been exposed to before.
However, today, he found himself distracted.
He was thinking about how to make Cheng Mofei "bend."
He wondered how effective the movie from last night had been...
During the film, he had been secretly observing. Aside from Cheng Mofei's shyness and awkwardness, there were no signs of discomfort or refusal, which was a good sign.
Tonight, he would try again and subtly guide him further.
As he was thinking, just before the class ended, Shen Yu suddenly received a message from Cheng Mofei.
First, Cheng Mofei sent a "little hamster peeking" emoji, and then got to the point: 【Are you there? There's something I want to talk to you about.】
Cheng Mofei was always the type to get straight to the point, never beating around the bush. Shen Yu, a bit puzzled, asked: 【What is it?】
Cheng Mofei: 【I feel like...】
Cheng Mofei: 【I think I might not be straight.】
Shen Yu: "?"
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