| BYSG | I'm Really Bent | 67
Cheng Mofei felt extremely uneasy in his heart, staring intently at the movie screen, not daring to even glance at the person beside him.
But he did not regret saying those words earlier.
If Shen Yu was willing, then he would have gained something. If Shen Yu refused, he wouldn’t lose anything.
After all, he was just helping him verify his sexual orientation, and all these requests were “reasonable.” Not taking advantage of the situation would be foolish.
Just as he was thinking, a soft kiss suddenly landed on his cheek.
It was clear that Shen Yu had agreed.
But it was merely a fleeting kiss, just a light touch on his cheek, not even crossing any boundaries.
Cheng Mofei didn’t have time to fully feel it before it was already over.
In the darkness, Shen Yu pressed his lips together slightly, savoring the moment, and asked in a very soft voice, "How does it feel?"
There was no one sitting behind them, and it was impossible to see the movements in their row from further back, which was why Shen Yu was so bold.
Other couples had kissed on the lips directly, but he had only kissed the cheek, which didn’t mean much.
Cheng Mofei's Adam’s apple moved quickly, and he couldn’t make a sound from his throat.
The feeling... the feeling was incredible.
He couldn’t even imagine what it would be like if Shen Yu had kissed somewhere else, or if the kiss had lasted a little longer...
Shen Yu: "Hmm?"
Why was he not responding? Had he been stunned by the kiss?
He admitted that the kiss did cross a line a little, but personally, he thought a cheek kiss was still fine. In some Western countries, cheek kissing was even a form of greeting, with no romantic or ambiguous meaning at all.
Of course, all the arguments and justifications didn’t change the fact that Shen Yu simply wanted to kiss him.
After all, it was Cheng Mofei who had given him the opportunity. Not taking advantage of it would be foolish.
After a while, the movie’s main characters had their first meeting, and the couple sitting in the row ahead of them finally finished their affectionate display and began to watch the film together.
Only then did Cheng Mofei manage to squeeze out a few words, "I really am gay."
...
By the time the movie ended, neither of them had remembered much of the plot, as their minds had been elsewhere.
During the movie, they couldn’t chat freely. It was okay to whisper a few words occasionally, but talking continuously would disturb others. The two hours had been unbearable for both of them.
If they hadn’t been trying to respect each other’s feelings, they might have even left the theater immediately after Cheng Mofei said those words.
Finally, as they exited the cinema, Shen Yu eagerly asked, "Are you really sure?"
Cheng Mofei hummed in agreement, his ears turning red, not daring to say much more, he was afraid that Shen Yu would ask him to describe how he felt when his cheek was kissed.
The purpose of tonight had originally been for Shen Yu to accept the fact that he was "gay," so that he could then smoothly pursue Shen Yu. Watching the movie was the last activity of the evening.
Even without that kiss, he would have admitted it to himself.
Shen Yu didn’t press for more details. After all, he had already anticipated this outcome.
No matter how Cheng Mofei felt after the kiss, it wouldn't change anything. Asking too much might actually be a bad thing.
This was great.
Cheng Mofei had finally realized his true sexual orientation, and his plan to pursue him could finally begin to take shape.
"It’s okay. In front of true love, gender means nothing," Shen Yu said, still considerate, offering words of reassurance.
While he didn’t know exactly how Cheng Mofei had gone from being a homophobic straight man to being attracted to him, this time, he would be right by Cheng Mofei’s side, helping him navigate through this period.
Suddenly thinking of something, Shen Yu changed the subject: "But I wonder if your family will accept it..."
Just that evening, Grandpa Cheng had mentioned in a video call that he was planning to set Cheng Mofei up with a blind date, clearly with the intention of finding him a girl.
At that time, Cheng Mofei was still young, and he was a bit concerned.
What if things progressed too quickly between them and unexpected issues came up?
For instance, what if his family didn’t approve, or tried to stop them?
"They'll accept it. My family is very open-minded. They’re not into the whole passing down the family name or inheriting the throne. What matters most is the happiness of the children," Cheng Mofei quickly explained, worried that Shen Yu might have some concerns when he started pursuing him.
Shen Yu nodded, taking his words at face value, and said, "That’s good. It’s getting late, let’s head back. Otherwise, we’ll miss our curfew."
"Okay."
At this time, the subway was still running. Compared to the peak hours, the number of people in the train had drastically decreased, and the carriages were almost empty with plenty of seats available.
On the way back, Shen Yu didn’t hold his hand again, and Cheng Mofei felt a sense of emptiness in his heart, but he couldn’t do anything about it.
After all, he had already fully confirmed his sexual orientation, and the role of a " boyfriend" should come to an end.
He casually opened his phone, and noticed that they had already been tagged in the dorm group chat.
Xiao Xiong: [Where did you two go for your date? Why aren’t you back yet?]
Sun Xinghe: [Bring me some grilled gluten when you come back, I’m craving it.]
Xiao Xiong: [Don’t tempt me, I’m trying to lose weight [bites handkerchief].]
Xiao Xiong: [Why is there no update? You’re not planning to stay out again tonight, are you?]
Sun Xinghe: [Be careful, the dorm supervisor might do a surprise room check.]
Xiao Xiong: [They checked last night, not sure about tonight, but it's still possible.]
...
They really did go on a "date."
Suddenly, Cheng Mofei recalled a lot of things from the past.
The first time he took Shen Yu to Cheng Zhiyu's place for extra lessons, he had said that from now on, the front passenger seat would be reserved for Shen Yu, and even had Shen Yu reply in the dorm group chat that they were going on a date.
In the context of their friendship, "date" didn’t carry any ambiguous meaning—it was just a playful joke. Xiao Xiong had said he was used to it, and even though he now knew about Shen Yu's sexual orientation, he still couldn’t change the way he talked.
Because Cheng Mofei was always asking Shen Yu to watch movies together, and when they stayed up late, he would even sleep over in Shen Yu's bed.
Xiao Xiong had jokingly said something like, "He always sleeps with Xiao Shen," but back then, Cheng Mofei had naively thought of Shen Yu as just a good friend and bed buddy.
There was also that night after they finished playing mahjong, when they went to a hotel to check in... although all they did was sleep.
He had actually taken advantage of Shen Yu so much when he was a straight man.
He had to be responsible for Shen Yu now, no matter what.
Staring at the dorm group name, "Relationship Status Progress 1/4," Cheng Mofei felt an intense urge to change the numbers to "3/4."
But he knew deep down that he wasn’t in the position to make that change just yet.
Suppressing the turmoil in his heart, Cheng Mofei lightly tapped his phone and replied in the group chat: 【Heading back, just went out for a meal.】
Cheng Mofei: 【Do you still want grilled gluten? @Sun Xinghe】
Sun Xinghe: 【Yes, bring two pieces.】
Cheng Mofei: 【Okay.】
Xiao Xiong: 【Two pieces... Do I get some?】
Sun Xinghe: 【? What are you thinking? I'm eating two pieces by myself.】
Xiao Xiong: 【Goodbye.】
Cheng Mofei curled his lips into a small smile, instinctively glancing at Shen Yu, who was sitting next to him.
Shen Yu was also looking at his phone. Normally, he would have seen the group messages, but he hadn’t said anything in the group chat, and it didn’t seem like he had noticed the messages at all.
The two were sitting very close, and Cheng Mofei easily caught a glimpse of Shen Yu's phone screen.
It was another conversation with that Fang Xiang.
Fang Xiang: 【Look at what I made in the lab today, it tastes pretty good.】
Fang Xiang: 【Photo】
Shen Yu: 【That's amazing.】
Shen Yu: 【[Little hamster praise ]】
Fang Xiang: 【I’ll let you try it when you get the chance.】
Shen Yu: 【Sure! Wait until I work hard to make money, buy a house, and build a big kitchen, then I can show off my cooking skills.】
The last sentence was sent right in front of Cheng Mofei.
Fang Xiang was studying food science and often wore a white lab coat to the lab, just like Shen Yu. But while Shen Yu was focused on his studies, Fang Xiang was in the lab making various types of food.
Fang Xiang’s cooking skills were excellent, having learned from his father. When Shen Yu was younger, the first time he ever learned to cook was with Fang Xiang and his father.
Cheng Mofei unconsciously clenched his fist, his lips pressed tightly together.
Buying a house... cooking in a big kitchen...
Did Shen Yu really want to live with that guy? Had he even planned something so far ahead, like cooking together in the future?
Noticing Cheng Mofei's gaze, Shen Yu proactively opened the photo and, with a smile in his eyes, shared, "Xiangzi is studying food science, and he goes to the lab every day to make delicious food. How lucky. He’s really good at cooking and can make lots of desserts too."
Cheng Mofei responded with a resentful, "Hmm."
His competitive spirit quietly flared up.
Cooking... so what? He could do that too.
The next day, Cheng Mofei found time to go back home and "exploded" the kitchen. He ended up giving his dad a stomach infection with his cooking and was ruthlessly sent back to school by his mom.
Cheng Mofei had originally planned to tell his parents about his sexual orientation, but now, after his cooking disaster, he didn’t dare to say anything.
He was afraid it would make things worse, he’d already "blown up" the kitchen, and he didn’t want to cause more chaos than that.
When Shen Yu came back, what he saw was Cheng Mofei squatting in front of the hamster cage, alone and lost in thought, as if questioning the meaning of life.
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